UMMMM....BLAH

So DH arrived home on Sunday morning. I have had to work every day since! :[ BUUT we have been making ample time to spend together in between work and sleep. He has scheduled his second SA for Jan 3rd. Hopefully, either the results are different from the last on, OR we can be given some better options than what we have now.

AF finally arrived late Sunday night and gave me horrible cramps early Monday morning. The pain I get with my periods is ridiculous. I think I'm going to talk to new doc about it, and see if maybe he can give me some answers since other docs just say there is nothing wrong. I think that for it to hurt as bad as it does EVERY month there must be SOMETHING wrong. Anyway, gonna ask about that when DH goes in on the 3rd.

Christmas is right around the corner and I am stoked! I can't wait. Family, Food, and DH is home!! I may not post again until after the holidays, so in case I don't, Merry Christmas everyone! Enjoy it all! :]

Sleep and Visitors

My DH is a truck driver, right? Well he's been telling me all week that he isn't going to make it home in time for Christmas! What a horrible thing to say to me! I've been really bummed about him not being here and also the IF problem, so him telling me that made it worse. Anywho, yesterday (Saturday) he tells me that there is a package being delivered at 5 am on Sunday for me. Naturally, I asked what it was. And, naturally, he wouldn't tell me. (Side note: Why do men tell us that they have a gift for us and then not tell us what it is? Do they know it's not cute, just frustrating?) I started guessing. I asked if it was pretty, if you could wear it, and if you could us it all year round. All "YES".
So, I went to bed around 10pm. I've been sick and not feeling well, so sleep sounded amazing, even though I wanted to stay up until my package was delivered! Fell asleep, dreaming of awesome things. I was woken up at 5:56 am by a man crawling into my bed! On top of that, the perp was coming towards me to kiss me!!! As my eyes adjusted, I realized it was DH!!!! He was my surprise package being delivered!! What a wonderful Christmas present from him. He's the best! I love him so much!

Just thought I'd share that with you. He's kinda cute in the way of surprises and things.

Chocolate and Family

I am about to make the journey to my Nana's house this morning, which is an hour away, for some chocolate gravy! I haven't had that stuff in years and I want it badly! Then I'm going to go to my mom's gravesite to see the new headstone that was set the other day. Hopefully, I don't lose my nerve or my gusto or whatever you wanna call it while I'm at the cemetery. It's always hard for me to go there, so my trips usually only last a few minutes at the grave. Wish I were stronger. I'll let ya'll know how it goes today, gravy and all! :] Have a Blessed Day Everyone!

Sick and Lonely

I woke up this morning with my throat swollen shut. UGH! What a horrible feeling that was. After going through a whole bag of Ricola Honey-Lemon cough drops and half a bottle of chloroseptic spray, it feels a little better. I can't be sick! I have so much to do this weekend, since I am off work, with Christmas only like, what, 5 days away?!?

DH is in NYC right now. He's a truck driver, btw. He's driving through the one place in the US that I have always wanted to visit, especially at this time of the year. I'm so jealous! He's talking to me again. Won't talk about the issue, but at least he's not shutting me out completely anymore. We're hoping that he will make it home by Tuesday at the latest so that he can schedule his SA for Wednesday. Doc said the sooner we get it done the better, so that we can discuss our options and figure out our plan of action.

Anyone else feel a little bummed with the holidays coming up? Maybe it's just me. It's Christmas #2 since my mom passed away, and I swear it's getting harder. And to top it all of, DH and mine IF problem.

Well, I think it's bed time for me. Gonna spray some stuff down my throat, suck on a drop then go to sleep.
See ya'll on the flip side! :]

Where are you AF??

Today is the 17th of December, correct?!? I was supposed to have aunt flow in for a visit beginning today and there is nothing. Not a pain, not a symptom nothing! I know that it's still a little early in the day to ask where she is, but she's normally right on time! Maybe it's because of stress fromt the last few days. Wouldn't it be nice if she didn't come at all and I got a pos pg test?!? Not gonna happen right now, but would still be nice! ;} Hope you all have a great day! Enjoy the snow, if you've got it..

The Beginning

I am going to begin this blog with our story. My DH and I met were married almost 4 years ago. We met on a little website called Myspace. I know, I know, it's kind of wierd. BUT we have made it this long. :) We weren't using any precautions in the beginning to stop us from having children, we figured if it happens it happens, if it don't it don't. Last year, after not having conceived yet, I went to a doctor that a friend of mine recommended. He did some blood work on me, and an SA on DH. My blood work came back just fine, DH on the other hand came back different. This doctor, let me tell ya! It took two weeks to get the results of DH's SA. I had to call them! Anyway, they read the results and all they said was this, "Yes, we have the results. His sperm count is low. There are some things that can be done to raise it. Would you like to make another appointment to discuss those options?" I told them no. That I wanted another opinion. Well, it took me a year to find the right doctor. Someone I could trust. Someone who had feelings. I finally found him! He's been in this same position himself, and this is his specialty, not just something he does on the side. Anywho, we set up to do an IUI. He gave me the scripts for some IF drugs and told me to call on D1 of my cycle. My cycle is supposed to start tomorrow, which meant that IUI would be done before the end of the month. WAIT! I got a phone call on Tuesday from new doc that DH SA file was finally faxed to them. It's not LOW, it's "0". Non-existant. Nada. Zip.

So, that is where we are at right now. DH won't hardly talk to me. New doc wants to do another SA. DH has agreed, but has informed me that if the results come back the same as the first one that he wants me to divorce him so that I can find a husband that can provide me with children naturally. He is totally opposed to DS, as am I. It just seems too wierd, koodos to those of you who have done or will do it though.

I'm at a loss. Not sure where to go from here. Or how to get DH to talk to me or realize that I"M NOT GOING ANYWHERE! I keep telling him how much I love him and that he's stuck with me till death do us part.

This blog will be my rambling spot. My way out. My brain relaxer. :) Please feel free to chime in with anything you would like.